My first infatuation

Everyone would be having there own pleasant experience on their first infatuation. So do I. It was during my 10th std. During lunch hour, I was chatting with my friends. I was so keen listening to what my friends were commenting, that I didn't realize that my eyes were actually seeing one girl. After some moments only I saw her. Then I realized that she was scowling at me. After realizing that, what I did was different. I started to see her only after that. I gazed at her for a moment. She then left. She did not disturb my mind at that time. I continued chatting. Mine was unlike the love which is shown in several movies. I am no way disturbed at the first sight.

Some other time I was loitering on the corridor. I was about to take a left. I just approached the corner. There a girl came in front of me. She was no more a girl in my mind. She appeared as an angel. She also saw me. I realized that she was the previous girl who I gazed before. I fell in her beauty. Though she was in the school uniform, she appeared as an angel in white dress in my mind. Her second sight disturbed me a lot. She was so cute, bubbly and her small eyes were very attractive. She is the most beautiful women I had ever seen. From that time, daily during the morning prayer assembly i kept gazing. After some research about her, I found out that she is one year elder than me. But it did not cease me from thinking about her.

I developed a habit of gazing her. Whenever I see her, I became speechless. But my soul was speaking to her through some electro-magnetic waves which needs no medium of propagation. It was several days after which i came to know her name. After then I started chanting her name, ROOPAKALA as a mantra. Though I do not have any habit of telling any sloga or something else, I did this very often.

One day which I could never forget in my life, it was my sports day. Even though I had participated in all of the sports day conducted each year, this one was worth memorable. As usual I started participating in all. Starting from running race to long jump I participated in all the sports, but in vain. I was not able to qualify for them. It was to my shock and surprise, that I found my angel dressed up in green saree giving the prizes to the chief guest for the winners. It just instilled some faith. I wanted to win something, so that i would get an opportunity to get a prize from her hand. It was the last competition of the day, TRIPLE JUMP. Many people went home. Only few were present and it was an added advantage to me. I participated in it and I got selected in it. Then in the finals, I came third.

I was excited and I was very eager to see her. I stood to receive the prize. But it was my bad luck, she had went home some time back. I was upset for sometime. Then i realized that I was able to achieve something because of her. Even though I did not meet her or did anything, it was a memorable day for me.

After then i thought of talking to her. But that dream remained dream forever. Throughout the days when i saw her, i kept looking; my eyes were speaking something, but not my mouth. It remained closed. This is my pleasant experience on my first infatuation. Well, everyone should know the difference between the infatuation and the true love. With no doubt this is a mere infatuation and nothing else.